No Words.

I know I said I was back, and then right after that, I disappeared for almost a month. To be honest, I no longer feel like the same girl who has been writing this blog for the past two years... But I've grown to see y'all like family and I've included y'all in just about all the journeys I've gone through so far, good and bad. I wish I could say that, days before me and Toby's one year anniversary, this is a good journey you'll hopefully join me on. But it's not. It's quite a painful one that I have yet to even TRY to make sense of.

Toby and I miscarried recently. 

I have probably said that a million times in my head before I was able to type it out.

But the little bundle of joy we thought we were going to welcome to this world next July is gonna spend the rest of their life with Jesus. 

I will probably elaborate on this more when I am up to it and when I can find the words, but in the meantime all I can ask for is prayer. I am in unfamiliar territory spiritually, physically, mentally, and emotionally. Toby is as well, so if you could offer up a special prayer for him too (as we tend to forget about the fathers during these moments), we would so appreciate it. 

Thanks in advance and I love you all so so much!