Day 10 - In the Not So Easy Moments

I asked a sweet sister at church how she was doing, and she revealed how I could pray for her. I have a friend who is still trusting God to come through monetarily as she's miles away from family. One of my favorite bloggers just experienced a heart wrenching failed adoption. I'm praying some tough prayers for some of my family members. 

I know that sweet sister can't wait to see progression in her situation. I know my friend can't wait for the day where her money issues are eradicated. I know that blogger can't wait to finally hold that precious tiny human in her arms. I know I can't wait until this mess with my family is over and done, and they come to Jesus.

But none of us are there right now. Oh, what a happy day it will be to finally be there! BUT I feel there is something to be learned here. I'm learning that sometimes  some of the sweetest and intimate moments with Jesus can be found in those moments in between our prayer and whether or not we get what we want. We learn about ourselves and we learn about God.

Why am I trying to take control right now? Why am I questioning God right now? Why am I so anxious, frustrated, angry, disappointed right now? Asking these questions gives me a little glimpse of how I see Christ and my relationship to Him: Because I don't trust Him fully to choose to take care of this situation. Because I feel like He's trying to withhold something from me. Because I expected His answer to be yes and right now!

From here I can either continue to be in my feelings while I continuously try to imagine the days where I'd be fully happy if things went my way (I've done this), OR I could give those feelings and thoughts to God and walk with Him as He guides me through remembering who He is through His Word and the promises He's given His children (I've done this too).  

The more these not so easy moments pop up in my seasons, the more I see just how much of a good, good Father God truly is. Each season has difficulty; some more than others. Some seasons have more clouds, some have more rain, some have frigid days, some have a lot more heat (um, can we say summer in Atlanta?!), but guess what? The sun is there each day. Due to the season, it may appear to shine more brightly on some days than others, but it shows up each morning. I'm so grateful that our Father doesn't disappear like when the sun goes down and the moon appears. He is always there in every single season. Run and cling to Him. I promise you won't regret it.