Day 3 - Where Am I?
I mentioned that I was in a season of waiting and uncertainty on Saturday. While that is partially true, I think it is more accurate to say that I am in, what Tabitha defines here, the pause. I love what she says:
My pause isn't a period. Or a question mark. It's the space between one paragraph and another. It's inundated with both freedom and hope. It's where I'm both being poured out, and filled up. Mostly, it's the place where I'm learning more about myself than I ever have.
Yes and amen! After an intense year, I truly feel that the Lord has me in a season of rest. As great as that sounds, and as much as I have prayed for rest (mainly physical rest) lately, it is surprisingly not that easy for me. I've mentioned before that by nature, I am a
Get pregnant and expand our family. Dive headfirst into a new career. Buy a house.
And let me tell ya: I've been trying to hustle my behind to cross these off of the list! Like I've said before, there's nothing wrong with preparation. It's good to prepare for our future family. BUT. I've been having my eyes stuck in the future so much that I'm missing out on today. I'm missing out on what God wants me to do and focus on for that day. I'm missing out on people in my life to serve, things that the Lord is laying on my heart to pray for, and intimate moments with Him. I'm missing that rest that I prayed for for months!
In this rest, this pause, this space between paragraphs, I have to trust in the Lord's timing and the way He wants to do things. Like a beautiful novel, there are lessons and nuggets of truth between the introduction of a problem and the relief of the conclusion. Instead of trying to rush to the end and see how it all works out, I'm choosing to get accept where I am in this story and enjoy the ride.
So where are you currently? Let me know if any of you are here in the pause with me!