Monday...

You ever feel like your mind is stuck on one particular topic or thing and you just can't seem to focus your mind on other things? Yep, me too. For the past week and a half, my mind travels to one particular moment in time and seems to want to stay there. To be honest, I am kind of embarrassed to say what it is I have been thinking about because I never wanted to be that girl...

My mind has been stuck on weddings *gasp*! I know, I know. I am only 22 years young. I am still in college. There is so much I could be doing for God's kingdom as an unmarried woman. But... I am 22 years old. Toby and I have been together for five years. Marriage is a ministry, right? Right?!

Honestly, I have no idea why my mind decided to obsess over weddings out of nowhere. I was perfectly fine just trying to be the best girlfriend I can be to an amazing boyfriend. But lately, I feel like I all of a sudden have what I call this huge "snowball" of wedding reminders in the front of my brain. As I try to think of the original "snowflake" that began this mess, I can think of some "snowflakes" that have accumulated into this snowball over the past week:

Pinterest. I'm pretty sure if you're a 20-something female, you have a Pinterest account, with at least one wedding board (secret boards, anyone?). I sure have one, and I may or may not have a secret one that has been updated too many times this week alone. It usually starts off innocently: I look up recipes, I see a cute outfit pinned a million times, and then, BAM! a gorgeous, white wedding dress, or "20 Tips on Having an AWESOME Wedding!" Next thing I know, I am making adjustments to my mostly-planned wedding. *sigh*

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Books and blogs. I love to read just as much as I love to write. Lately, I have found some amazing books and blogs by excellent Christian women. But, no matter what the topic is, romantic love seems to pop up. So and so met at a church camp and got married years later. So and so is single and refuses to settle, so she is waiting for God to bring her the right man. So and so are newly weds and want to share their new life! I am not bitter by the way, as I am a sucker for all things romantic, but I am starting to see a hint of a theme.

My friends. I have the most amazing friends on this planet. Like, seriously. But all of us are single, and sometimes our conversations begin to make its way into marriage territory. We all want to be a Proverbs 31 woman, and last time I checked Mrs. P31 was married. So when we bring her up and how we want to possess her qualities, we inevitably bring up marriage. We don't always talk about marriage, but I seem to be a little more aware of these conversations lately. 

Thinking about weddings and getting married is not a bad thing, but I have to be careful not to spend my whole day daydreaming about an event that hasn't happened yet that I become discontent with my present life. It's very easy for me to do. I want to enjoy where I am in this current season of my life. I want to soak up every single drop of goodness that comes with being an unmarried woman who is in school. I want to enjoy my courtship with Toby and soak up the details of God writing our love story. Gosh, I just want to focus on today! Someone please drag my tail back to February 24, 2014!

Love you, sis!

Tiffany